i STILL GET nothing

how long i searching u?
how many time i ask my fd wer can get u?
finally i found u at ter..
i try u..i c the mirror..aweseome.
finally i let u down..i put u bac..
cz i cant afford u..
i blame myself..blame soo much..
no body will knw my feel..
work hard..save hard..oso useless..
almost 3 month..i spend money to some wer..bt i get nothin bac..
i get nothing for myself..and no body know my feeling..
enuf dy..
just a dream never come true..
i blame