part time

i was workin at the curve a shop whose calling kitchen.jz a weekend partimer.other day nid study.
cz wana find more money.
avweek oso use finish.spend finish.
wana buy somethin 4 myself.until nw oso cant buy it.
hw long i notice tat thin i wan ah? i 4got dy..
i wan save some money 4 myself.
so.my friend..if u free at weekend.com here n find me 4 a lunch.
i wil vry happy c u all.cz i work at ter vry boring.
c u!

run run run

i am goin out to jogging
cz i don wan stay in room anymore
i wan splash out my stress
i don wan stay the bad situation anymore
i wil run until i feel tired
thn i jz bac home

is crazy

bt tis the way i are

ciao~ I GO NOW

DEEP BLUE

I notice bac hw long i nv login tis dust fully blog.It is long tim ago..
Cz i gt no tim to update n i gt not intrest to write anythin..
Bt tonite..tis blog gv me a little space to let me speak out wat i feel nw..
I feel blue nw..i feel down nw..n i feel sad nw..i get deep blue rite nw..
Anyone can hear me?
Friend? Parents? Relatives? GF? Or even jz a stranger..
No one..tonite i fil totally lonely..i get blue..
Deep blue..

Tis few week..i was worry somethin was bothering me serious..
GF bday..prom nite ticket..assignment..
All abt money..i got no time to save more money to afford those kind of thin n activity.
And i gt no chance to save money..avweek spend finsih..no body knw actually knw i wan save money buy somethin for myself..
avweek same..same..
and i was feel numb..starting feel no more hope..jz dream tat thin whn i slip..
I try to count my money.save..don eat lunch at skul..less activity..less spending..
bt finally..oso gone..

i try to 4get all those stuff n keep grow the speed of my assignment..i do..i do..nv rest..slip at midnite..wakeup at 6 mornin..somemore stil gt tuition..

until..i go shopin center find a parttime job..i hv to force myself spend all the time..wifout any relax..no more..n my mind start feel tired..i knw i wil break down one day..
bt i tel myself..hwever wat situation..keep silent..n do it n do it..is ok.

friday..is jz a normal day 4 me..i rush many stuff of my assignment at lastnite until i slip at 4..n i wakeup at 8..i continue do my design..non stop..no one knw..n i nv aspect i wil soo hard workin..i am change..change alot..
finally i done.n i bring the thumb to print wif the happy mind..cz i finally i can get abit relax chance..
suddnely..car accident..i am lazy talking abt the process dy..i serious accident..i cant use my car mayb one or two week..
i get scold frm parents..no one wil support me..even i say i din speedy..i swear..
i quite..i silent..i walkup to my room..lock it..open my laptop n act lik ntg..c the msic video i like..
my tears was slowly drop down frm my eye..as u knw..i giveup ady..my heart n my mind ady over limit..
all those bad stuff drop to me shorty..i cant control my tears..bt i keep tel me brain don cry pls..i am a man..pls..

i lock my door n i stay inside my room util one of my neighbor ask me com out to eat dinner.,n he don knw wat was happen b4..
i eat wif him..talk all those rubbish stuff..nv touch my accident story..

i realize one thin..sometim one simple talk can make me happy..n it jz serve frm mamak..a cheap mamak store..no alcohol..no hot chick..no music..and i realzie tis is wat i wan..
wat i aspect wil happen bt nv com..
my close fd nv ask me..nv cal me...
my GF? whn i nid her by myside..it wont bcom truth..nv n nv..and i fil fuckin duper disappointing..avtime oso same..even last time..

and i tel myself..i jz a crow..whn ppl nid me i com out..whn ppl happy dy..they wont rmbr n miss me..tats it..
so i tel myself..i wont b the crow again..nv..i wil b bac wat am i..i wont fil sry n shame to u all..even u close wif me..

4.30am..i stil cant slip..cz my mind ady drop to deep deep blue..i start less talkin..i din com out the room..jz facing the comp wifout any reason..and i numb.

saturday..i skip all 3/4 part..evening..i go relatives hse wif my family eating buffet..
some of my relatives tel me somethin hurting word to me..say me do many wrong thin..say me crash the car..
u wan change new car izit? thn go buy la y wan crash the car..n i silent bt showing my smile face to all.
i fil tat moment i am not here..i take a beer..n i walking out n nv tellin them..i drink the beer in road..i sit down at the bus stop station..vry lonely n vry down..handphone no any msg..no any call..is empty..
the ppl i hope she can stay wif me bt she nt..she nt free..she go happy..wat the situation..soo hurt..n stil soo hurt..n soo deeply hurt..

a msg com out..my neighbor again..ask me drink later.
ni standup n walk to his hse wif my non finish beer..in fact..the beer is the oni one fd by my side..funny..bt i cant smile..

stil same..a mamak rubbish talk..two of my neighbor acc me..i nv tel them my stuff.jz keep talkin rubbish thin.my fon nv ring..my msg box was stil empty..the ppl most close wif me nv find me..cz she is happy nw..is damn happy..n i notice.avthin stil same lik last time..nv change..jz talk cock n promise cock..n i stil lik a stupid...

bac hom..no mood to slip even i am vry tired..my eye is red..my face was lok lik old ppl..cz i am down for 2 day..nv stop..
i write the blog most longer in my life..i think so..
cz i gt anot thin wana tel ppl..bt i knw no one wil understand me n no one wil spend they tim to listen..i fuck u all..i rely fuck

thks guo lian..thks yan hong..thks mamak..
n thks those fuckin ppl n fuckin stuff..
u let me learn somethin important in my life..thks fuck ppl..

2.45am..she havent bac..n no msg n no call..good..

thn enjoy yrself..n yrself..

i wont wait u anymore..i feel speechless..

-end-

誕生日おめでとう

DING DING DING!
blog tim again!
sudenly gt mood write my pity blog..i think i stop write tis blog few month ago dy-.-"
few thin r appear at my mind nw..is some memory
first is my 20 years old bday..man..wat the nice day 4 me~
i am alrdy waitin to celebra my bday since i knw her..
bcz i promise her i wil bring her together to celebra my bday..n she wonderin go paivilion..
bcz she lik tat place..haha!
a nice diner..hv alot of fun whn havin dinner wif her..she is cute^^
after havin the fuckin full dinner..ya...movie time man..
i let her chose the movie she wana to c..walaoe..zoobie mv wa..scary man..
2 hour inside the mv..i saw she is feel scare avtim the zoombie is com out..haha!
n me keep laughin inside the cinema bcz the zoombie face damn funny man..i think i am crazy-.-"
finish dinner n the mv..wat is the nex?
yo..sure is lepak in bukit bintang la wei..don lose the nice view of kl nite man~
damn zhun both of us walk to 7-11 n get the heniken..wow...relax....
walk around bukit bintang n have my favour heniken is the bex thin abt tonite^.^
haha..one more thin..she nt a drinker..drink abit sudah brebre n stil wan act lik ntg..haha!
v keep play around the paivilion n talk some funy thin..n she ask me to do some funny thin..haha..white stick-.-"
wow..the nite is goin old..n she sing the bday song 4 me b4 end of the day..touchin man..haha!
thks..i hv a wonderful bday i nv hv b4..a good nite^^
~n she told me she fil vry happy even tis nt her bday~

BORED=BLUE

blog again~
bcz too sian jor..
if nt i wont write blog..hehe~
i feel blue nw....

soo miz my fd wei..the seven guy..haha!
hope i can live at setapak..so i can yumcha wif ah keong..bosco~
hope i can live at subang..so i can clubin wig gary bro..haha~
hope i can live at middle of cheras n puchong..thn i can lepak wif marcus n noel..n oso daren~
hope i can live at jiao lai..i can find sam eat satay..soo paisek sam..nv go jiao lai find u b4~

y u guy live soo far man~
y the fuckin goverment awlys increase the price of petrol..fuck..
y v don live at the near place with each other...
haiz...haiz wat 7 la..i should face the truth.

yo man..soo sry sometim i can attned yr guy's gatherin..
bcz my wallet is empty..rely...
bcz no money pum petrol..rely...
bcz i don wan borrow frm u guy..paisek~

so..pls 4gv me whn i cant attend..is truth..no money cant don anythin~even pay tol..

long tim din clubin dy..actually tis week can go geh..
bt spend too much at some rubish thin..finally wallet nt enuf money to spend..
finally hv to cancel...wat the fuck man..

long tim din c my dai lou gary dance the crazy shuffle..n bosco..
the incredible bro..waikeong n noel..wat the pro dancer..
marcus n sam..the ppl awlys high their ownself-.-"
n the dare guy..daren..shine whn stand at the floor..haha!

hey bro~ make a apoitment again wei..
i wana make love in the club man~jk nia~
pls god..pls drop money 4 me n my bro...
i wan crazy wif them man~

haha~
ciao...

FRIEND~

wat is friend?
some tim i don knw....bt some tim i knw....
friend is a ppl who u lik(WATEVA IS GAL OR BOY)..can talk well..gt topic..can play togeter..crazy togeter..tis is my friend!

i love my friend vry much..and rely happy knw they all..my gang!
they is crazy people! funny! playful!
wat the heck..i don knw wer can find the friend lik tis again..i hope no nid find again..bcz u all r the bex for me! my gang!

i gt 9 bex fd at last tim..bt...nw lost one..is totally lost one~
y??
y u soo fuckoff!
y u soo dumb!
Y U MAKE YRSELF LIK BITCH!
y u awalys do somethin wil broke our friendship?

if u don lik our friendship u jz go la! don stay at here...i wil feel disgusting!
did u memory bac wat u do av tim?
av sem u sure do one sohai thin make v all dulan u..
each tim is more serious thn each tim..fuck~
i don knw u gt drink milk or nt..cz yr brain damn...childist..fuck!
avtime v oso try to forgive u..bt u make us disapointed avtime..
wat i hear frm them..i feel soo geli..y u wil do the fuckin thin lik tis!
last tim is u awalys at my ear say don try to b playboy..wan serious at love!
wat the hell!
bt nw u r the fuckin play boy u knw? i feel disgustin..bitch!

nvm..jz gone..i wil delete yr name at my brain..let it go~
thks 4 u last tim awalys talk the fuckin barbel at my ear...
terima kasih~

friend..u all is the one of the part in my life..important part 4 me..
without u all i think i wil bcome lonely..
no ppl play wif me..hang out wif me..crazy wif me..haha!
thks my fd..ops...sry...is my gang! GREAT GANG!

eventhought v nw is pisah dy..some ppl study at tarc..some in saito..once in segi..once stil waitin resit..hehe~
bt i think this nt the prob can broke down our friendship~
avweek i oso waitin the time v gathering..tat is a bex time for me avweek..
yumcha..clubin..hangout..wtf...damn happy man~
i can keep talkin hold nite if i saw u all..my friend!
is a bex thin i knw u all..haha!
i trust our mind can let tis friendship walk more far..more longer..jz lik the shell petrol..haha!

GREAT GANG MEMBER!
DAREN
WAI KEONG
NOEL
MARCUS
GARY
BOSCO DESMOND
SAM

once again i write the blog for my bex friend..is vry meaninful 4 me..do u same wif me?
peace~

i am bac..bcz the new life is comin..

sry 4 the stop moment
i think i stop my blog 2 month ady gua..after i create my first post
my fd wai keong ask me burn the blog bcz i nv update tis blog
n oso marcus was complain ady..y my blog was empty
haha~ bcz i am lazy to type la..sry bro...sry avone
bt anyway..i am bac
i wil show u all wat was happen whn i study at saito college..my new skol
aloooo~ my fd..hw r u nw? ok?
i very miss u all man..hope can c u all soon^^